i’ve just been so tired and sad lately and i can’t stop thinking of stupid things i’ve done and i just want to stop everything. like just stop time and let me relax for a few days, because this week is going to be so busy for me.

I have jazz band tomorrow after school until 3, and then i have to go back to the school at 6 to rehearse with the concert band and wind ensemble for our big concert this friday and saturday. And i’m supposed to get my period any day now and i just don’t want to deal with that, but i’d rather have it and get it over with than have it the night of the concerts where i’m at the school for 8 hours straight without any time to go to the bathroom. maybe if i wish hard enough, i can delay it for a week because sometimes that actually works

i’m just so exhausted all the time and i just don’t know what to do anymore. im just so stressed and on edge for no reason it feels like. and it’s been giving me headaches. idk