I haven’t been home for even a day and my mom is already telling me how I feel is wrong!!! 😀😁😊👌👌👍👍👍👍👍
if anybody needs me i’ll be watching star trek and being sad and probs crying too because im officially back at my mom’s house and i want to die!!!!!!!
Me, every second of every day for the rest of my life forever:
when will I die
Wouldn’t it be pretty dang great if I just!! ! Idk ??? ? Died right now!! !!!!
Well its my last night at Mike’s and I have no where to go other than my mom’s house so I can’t wait to feel dead inside 24/7 again and take 1000000 steps backwards in my mental state progress and basically want to die!!!!!!! Yay!!!!!!!!
I have a little over a week to figure out where I’ll be living ahahahahahaha life it terrible atm
I went to my house today to pick up my con ticket that came in the mail and I couldn’t find it and I think my mom took it or hid it so I’m forced to confront her face to face to get it and I’m pissed isn’t that illegal or something??? ? Stealing someone’s mail?? Either that or she threw it away and I’ll be so pissed because then I’ll have to pay like over 100 bucks to have a new ticket shipped here in time if there’s any even left I’m so fucking pissed
“I don’t want to be mean to you but its like I have to!” Wow what an emotionally abusive thing to say :)))))
I’m sick of feeling like shit. I’m sick of embarrassing myself all the time. I’m sick of never being good enough. I’m sick of having to depend on my future to get me through now. I wish i could just do something right now that would help me and get me through until the future. But I’m not good at anything and nobody notices me and I’m too anxious and unstable to do anything. I’m stuck. I’m trapped. Why can’t it be like 4 years from now and mike and I are comfortably living together and are engaged or married and have cute pets. I want to get to that point. But I need something to happen now to help me feel less trapped until I get there.