Data Trash™

actually maybe kms IS the answer because brother i’m sick of trying to be human and failing and i’m just a really shitty person and i don’t deserve friends and like i truly believe the world would be a better place without me :* xoxoxoxoxo

#text #delete later #personal #suicide mention #but like haha i’m fine #edit: actually maybe i’m like a little serious lol

deleted the post because mike fixed the problem by turning the entire house off and on again (as you do) but also as a reminder not to reblog posts i tag as personal

#i need to make a proper pinned post saying so bcuz if ur new how would you know that so it’s totally fine #i just feel silly tagging things like:#personal #reminder not to reblog posts i tag personal #because idk that’s silly to do every time #but my original sentiments still stands: i wish the man who sold us our house a very pleasant die #text

i apologize for all the house pics but everything is finally coming together and mike and i are just so proud of our lil home 🥺

#text #personal #it’s finally feeling like a home!!!!!#we had a bunch of random stuff we had no space for when we moved in #but we cleaned it all up today!#there’s still a lot we want to do but things feel good rn!

i started a portrait of trip when i was really h*gh last night and now it’s the morning and i don’t remember what it looks like… tbh im scared

#text #personal #let us go see #i just remember it looking so bad i had to go to bed akdhhdja

i got to see a preview of the website for the trek thing i got to contribute to and it looks so good but of course my page is the only one where the social media links are wrong and i have too much anxiety to email the people in charge to fix it rip oh well

#text #personal #also that artist fear of your art looking different on different monitors and screens came true because it looks sooooo saturated on desktop #thats my fault though because i went in and edited it and made it more saturated #but like i already feel bad about the links because in my first email i told him my socials and then he said everything was good and then #sent another email saying he still needed the links so i sent them again because whatever i figured he had a lot going on no biggie #and now im like aaaaaahhh #i dont want to bring it up again #maybe someone will say something on launch day tomorrow

i am so tired of waking up everyday to worse and worse news and reading all the terrible things everyone is going through. i want to help everyone but i feel so helpless. i even feel guilty when i feel happy because what do i have to be happy about when there are so many people suffering everyday. i keep trying to be optimistic because i know there are so many good people and kind hearts but it gets harder and harder everyday

#text #personal #reminder not to reblog posts i tag personal #sorry i’m just venting #i want to help but there are just so many people suffering that it’s so overwhelming #plus my own mental health is shit #and i’m not in a good place financially to help anyone #idk im very much losing it lmao #i know this is a pretty well understood feeling which makes it’s even worse

vulcannic

very funny to me that im trying to write a paper about how much i relate to ezri but i have so many thoughts and things i want to say that i cant even write down what i want to say. like i just read over what i wrote and its one whole page of just the most bland sentences ever written because i can’t properly word my thoughts which is very ezri of me

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I DID IT IM DONE I SENT THE EMAIL IM FREEEE!!!!

Source: vulcannic #text #personal #i am very excited to be a part of this cool thing #and a goal for this year is to get out of my comfort zone with my art and do more things like this that requires actually working with #other artists #and like sending emails and stuff #because i know the payoff is so worth it but god the anxiety i feel every step of the way is crushing #BUT I DID IT!!!!!!!!!#how should i reward myself? hmm?

very funny to me that im trying to write a paper about how much i relate to ezri but i have so many thoughts and things i want to say that i cant even write down what i want to say. like i just read over what i wrote and its one whole page of just the most bland sentences ever written because i can’t properly word my thoughts which is very ezri of me

#the thoughts in my brain are so good too bad i am unable to translate them so others can understand :)#text #personal

vulcannic

oh my goooood i hate how this portrait is turning out but i’m in too deep to start over fml

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lol jk i changed the background color and now i like it again false alarm folks

Source: vulcannic #but my laptop and ipad dying at the same time? queens #the universe is telling me to take a break #text #personal

oh my goooood i hate how this portrait is turning out but i’m in too deep to start over fml

#text #personal #reminder not to reblog posts i tag personal #of course i forget how to digital art when i’m involved in a cool project :)))))#i still have to type out my paper too like fuck me